I am human. I gossip. I laze. But most of all, I used to find it very hard to forgive someone. I used to get even with those who have hurt me.
And I hated this. I hated who I was. I always wondered how can someone like me, ever learn to forgive, ever learn to change.
I prayed constantly, asking Allah for forgiveness, asking Allah to soften this heart of mine.
It wasn't until yesterday when I had a chat with my husband that it struck me.
My husband was telling me how someone has hurt him very much.
And my reply was, "Let him hurt you. Please pray for him so Allah can help him change his ways."
And I realised I have been doing this for quite some time.
I have been constantly praying for those who detest me. I have been even praying for their deceased family member.
Allah has answered my prayers. I have learnt to forgive.
Not just that, I used to get bored easily with my job, when I do, I will not perform, thinking, "I can just get another job. They do not owe me a living."
Allah has guided me to work with determination. Now, even when the odds are against me, I will work even harder to prove to MYSELF that I can overcome a little obstacle.
There are those who do not change or refuse to have their ways change even if it is for the better. But Allah helped me. He slowly softened my heart to forgive, he peservered my mind to challenege myself.
And for that I would like to remind my fellow muslim friends to NEVER forget Him. Insya-Allah, all will be well.
