I have tried. Many times. And failed every single time I try.
Loneliness surrounds me. I thought I had it all. I thougt this is the way I should live my life. Having friends around me, having a good career, a wonderful family with no problems whatsoever. I thought this is the kind of blessing that everyone gets.
And I realised much later that He can take everything away from me in the blink of an eye.
He showed me who my true friends are. Unexpectedly very few. And those whom I hardly have a chance to talk to.
He showed me the true colours of someone whom I treasure dearly.
He showed me that every single thing can crumble right before my very eyes.
I watch and fall into complete darkness. Pretending to be alright. Pretending to be happy. While sadness overpower every happy feeling I have.
It is in these tough times, that made me realise that I only have Him. That nothing matters really. Everything I have is but a loan from Him. He can give me happiness. And He can take it away.
Allah is the one who hears my cries. It is invisible to most. I prayed and cried daily begging Him for more strength to go through this.
The suffering continues. And I have no one to talk to about it.
